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[Thursday
September 6th, 2007 at 12:33am] |
AAAAAAAAAAH I just can't help myself. I tried. I really did. A week away I thought would help..except for the fact that we spoke online every single day I was gone. I like him. I can't help it. And I have NO clue if hes interested in me at all, and thats what is driving me NUTS.
From the beginning (and Im using paragraphs.. proud?!)...
In class, going for lunch.. there are 6 of us, tables seat 4, Kendrick and I end up at a table together by ourselves. We talk, have thing in common.. seems like a cool guy. I get home and want to go out (because I was stuck staying in the previous night when I was supposed to go out)..So I have my facebook status as "Want to go out tonite, anyone in?". He finds & adds me and sends a message saying he'd be up for coming out. So we message a bit and he ends up coming out with me & some other friends of mine, and I live about a 7 minute walk from the pub.. yet he still gave me a ride home. The next day at class, which was our last class, he also ended up offering me a ride home.
We end up messaging on facebook a few times, and he had mentioned a rad/different band he heard so I checked them out and liked them. He said he could burn me the CD and should get it to me before I left on sunday, to go back to regina. So I invited him to come out to the fireworks with a friend & I, and he agreed to come. A bit before we had to go down, he called & asked if I wanted to go for dinner with him & some friends of his... so we do that, then go to the fireworks. It was the last night I was going to get to see my friend, so we had plans to meet up with others and go to a shisha bar. I invited him, but he wasn't into the smoking thing.. but he still offered to drive us from the NE (where the fireworks were) to downtown... even when he was going to his buddy's place which was in the NE. 2 minutes after he dropped us off he called me to make sure we could get home alright (I melted over this). Later that night after we got home I texted him thanking him for being a sweet guy and making sure we were ok, and he ended up telling me that if i wasnt leaving the next day, he would have invited me to go to edmonton with him & his friends for a car show.
Then Im in regina for about 8 or 9 days... we kept messaging on f acebook until the posts were novel-esque and we swapped to msn... and still talked every day. Then I got back yesterday, we talked... and he asked what I was doing today, so I said I was going for wings tonite but he was welcome to come. He had just bought a brand spankin' new motorcycle... and picked it up today... so he swung by afterwards to the pub around 9:30-10ish.. by 10:30 everyone else had left, but we stayed & chatted till midnight. And he was so excited to show off his new bike... it is HOT. Damn now thats a turn on!!!
And I am having a housewarming get together on friday which he said that he would be coming to.. and I told him that if/when he got a passenger helmet he had to take me for a ride on his new bike.. and he said he was going to get one when he got paid next and that he'd definitely take me out...
And nothing has been said, no moves made... so I can't tell if hes just being a nice friendly guy, or if he may be interested in me, And that really drove me nuts at first because I knew that I should not be interested in him.. because I should be single right now, not looking to find a new man...so I was thinking "oh if hes interested then ill let myself be interested"... but that just aint gonna cut it. I. Like. Him. And I suck at the dating game/reading guys. So I really.. am clueless. I guess friday might help because its a casual environment (haha my apartment!) So I am hoping I get the guts to flirt a bit and see what his response is. He seems like a bit of a quiet guy.. so Im not sure what that'll mean.. if hes just quiet or if hes shy.. or anything.
Long story short.. after writing out a long story.. is...
ME=CONFUSED.
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| I suck at this game |
[Sunday
August 26th, 2007 at 1:51am] |
So I've decided I pretty much suck at being single. Why? Because after the disaster that was my relationship with chance I decided I needed a break from men. I've been in 4 relationships in the past 16 months, having a total of about 2 months being single. So the decision to be single for a while.. should make sense! Just get back into being ME again, as opposed to half of a couple. So why do I suck at this? Because I met someone who I think I might be starting to like. We met through the class that we both had the past 2 weeks.. only started talked near the end though. And in the past few days we have hung out a couple times... in group situations mostly. And he just seems like a genuinely good guy. I think thats the problem right there. Do I think there is something possibly there between us? I don't know. I keep trying to tell myself NO. Don't let it even get to that point.. keep it platonic... regardless of whether attraction is there on either behalf. Because I don't really know him, I have no clue if he's just really friendly or thinking something else. He's not really flirty.. we just seem to get along really good. He even said that if I wasn't leaving town (to go home for a week) tomorrow, he would have invited me to go up to Edmonton with him & his friends for a car show. I don't know cars but they are still interesting to me. This is a 3 hour drive each way! But I think I am starting to think it may be interesting to see how things play out.. and not be dead set against it if something WERE to happen. Hence the sucking at being single. It's been 3 weeks only and I've already met someone to possibly bend my resolution. And its not rebound either.. I've had my rebound with an ex (friends with benefits, when he's in town).
I think that it will be good for me to be home for a week... let things cool perhaps.. and see what happens when I come back. Maybe this is just "oh she's a cool chick I want to hang out with her".. in which case I'm stressing over nothing but I don't know which I would rather it be.. which is what is what I'm stressing out over even more! But a week at home, with friends... no guys to think about at all...I'm hoping will help clear my mind. No matter what I do I seem to manage to get in a kufuffle about the male species. WHY. Nothing is ever simple. I also suck at reading guys. I think maybe I'm reading too much into this.. and that I shouldn't even be stressing... Yay for having an analytical mind. UGH.
On another note... new piercing today. Got my daith pierce
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[Tuesday
July 24th, 2007 at 11:58pm] |
a long time with no entry. i havent even journaled since then, online or on paper. i can't seem to understand things now though.
why am i afriad of love? in the last year i have only begun to be able to say "you too" when my parents say they love me, and on a rare occaision i have said "love ya too"... never love you or i love you. those are the scariest 3 words, 8 letters, in the english language. and never first.. i have only said it in response to them. i cant bring myself to. its not that im afraid they dont love me.. i know they do. they contantly show me, even when they live far away. its just scary to do. i know this happened, or started, when they found out about me. when they went through my things, found out about my bulimia, my depression, my cutting. when they took me straight to the hospital. i know it was then that i lost trust in them. that i hated them. and i did for a long time. that was 5 years ago. and in that time i never let myself get close enough to any person to fall in love with. until nik. with him i said it first. i said i love you. 3 or 4 times ever... and he only said "love ya too" quick and mumbled back. he didnt mean it. that i found out later. and now with chance... when he told me he loved me that night a few weeks ago, it felt so right. i said the full 3 words to him, with no hesitation. the next day it rolled off my tongue, it just felt right. then something happened. something changed. the past 3 weeks chance has been distant. he admitted that he was falling into a depression of sorts, comparing his life a year ago to his life now. and i asked him if he really meant it when he told me he loved me, he said yes but was wondering if telling me was a mistake as he thought i hadnt said it back. at all. and this was a conversation online. i told him that i was scared... but that i did love him and that it is just so hard for me to express. and he never replied back. something happened. i found out today. his old best friend cheated on his wife with chances ex girlfriend. and i think chance had an idea it was going on.. but didnt talk to either and wasnt about to butt in. until the wife walked in on them. so chance helped her move everything out and her and the kids are now staying at his place. i had wanted to see him today, to talk to him about our conversation the night before, to understand what was going on. i havent been able to. hes been busy with her. and i understand that. but i feel like i need to talk to him. to understand US. i was up all night last night crying, sobbing. i just couldnt stop. and today at work. same thing. its so hard... and then i have to wonder why im scared of love? im scared shitless of it not being reciprocated. that i have feelings for someone and they dont give a shit. and he told me that isnt the case. but love is still so scary. even casual "luv ya" from a friend... last night even... i couldnt reply to it. i didnt know what to say. when someone says "you know i love ya" or "you know you love me".... i cant respond. that word is in there. i wish i knew why... i just want to understand what scares me so much about it. it seems so illogical. but perhaps it isnt. im not a psychologist. but i want one to figure me out. i have been off all my meds for about 3 months now. and im an emotional basketcase half the time. i cry so easily. its not who i am used to being. the change is so difficult. i didnt cry before. unless something significant triggered it. but now, not understanding a concept is enough to put me in tears. it makes me wonder if i really do need to be medicated. if i really do need a therapist and a psychiatrist. if perhaps t here is something wrong with me. an electrical or chemical short circuit in my brain. or maybe i need to deal with my past. but i dont know how. i dont know how to go ahead. im scared of so much. growing up. love. life. and yet i want each of those thigns. i want to be independant. to graduate. to grow up and have a life of my own. i want to have someone there to hold me, to care and love me. and i want life. i have no desire not to live.. it just doesnt cross my mind. but i dont think i know how to live. not properly. and when can i move on and become a normal person. a normal 21 year old who hasnt had mental problems, spent 5 years on medications, dealing with various therapists and doctors. who isnt deathly afraid of feeling emotions. of loving someone. of TELLING them this. i know how i feel. and maybe its as though if i dont say it, it might nto be real... i cant be hurt if i dont say anything. but i dont want it to be this way. i dont want to be scared of it.
i just want to understand why i am this way. and what i can do to fi
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[Sunday
November 19th, 2006 at 7:46pm] |
im so smitten. i love this boy. i dont know what else to call it. he is so amazing... and as an added bonus my friends can see how happy i am when i am with him. even when they meet him for the first time.. i was telling a friend who had met nik the night before, that i liked him so much.. and she was like "i can tell. you look good together". i just.. cant even explain how happy i am. i occaisionally feel like ive said/done something stupid and that he'll get bored with me... but then i see him again and he just shows me thats not the case. hes so affectionate. i love how he just grabs my hand when hes driving, or when we are sitting together... just anytime we are near, we are touching and its comforting... hes not afraid of being affectionate in front of his friends, nor my friends. how on earth did i get so lucky? im just wow.
in other news, i got a new piercing last week... side labret. got a couple pics here.
( piercing )
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[Wednesday
November 1st, 2006 at 6:54pm] |
Im confused. I don't know how I feel. All I know is that I really intensely like Nik, and I haven't felt this way before. I'm NOT afraid of commitment with him.. I can't imagine wanting to leave him for anything. He is just so amazing. And its scary.. that I feel this way so fast. But things are just so comfortable with him that I can say that.
Where am I going with this?
I don't know the difference between lust and like and love... Can anyone give me their take on this difference?
I have been falling more and more for Nik in the last couple weeks.. and I dont know exactly what it is I am feeling.. because it just happens to coincide with when we have gotten more intimate with each other.
I dont like not knowing what it is I'm feeling.. it confuses me. I think that there should be some way that someone can just tell me what it is im feeling.
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[Sunday
October 29th, 2006 at 6:23pm] |
Last night was the party night for Halloween... or as I dubbed it.. Halloween for big kids. I went with Nik and his friends to a house party hosted by a guy they all knew from high school era (most of their friends ARE in fact friends from back in school). So we get there and this house is WOW. Just astounding. I can't even put into words how wicked it was. Pool table, foos table, darts, FULL bar with like taps for hooking kegs up even, as well as 2 slush machines for margarita type drinks. There was a 10 dollar cover to get in the door, and that got you 3 drink tickets (which he had stocked up beer, rum & coke, and the 2 flavours of margaritas) as well as food. He started out with veggies & dip, as well as chips.. then as the night got later he brought out appetizer foods (like jalepeno poppers, mini egg rolls) and then pizzas.. and he brought out like 4 pizzas (2 at a time) and they were big.. so like there was plenty of food for everyone. There was about 25-30 people there at any given time. Also the place was hardwood floors, and just SO gorgeous.. this was in the "game room" and there was a glass door to a hallway which led to a bedroom, bathroom and the "entertainment room" - it had like a 70inch TV and like 7 identical recliners... so it really was set up just for movies.
Nik is a cuddly kind of guy... likes to have his arm around me and just give little kisses at random times.. and when he gets drunk hes even more so like that... like we were in the recliner room with a few other people.. it did seem to be mostly couples at the time... and i was sitting on niks lap and he'd just randomly hug me & kiss my back. And one of his old friends that they dont see often asked us how long we had been together.. and we didnt really know.. like i said 2 months... he kinda sayd that plus the times we went out in the summer... so its cute.
Last night was the time change too... so we were leaving at 3 (which was really 2am) and got dropped off at niks place (well its his grandparents, but him & his sister elizabeth are house sitting for 6 months) so anyways we check to see if liz is there, shes not, so we leave the door unlocked & head down to his room. Start making out and things get heated... we ended up having sex.. our first time with each other. Neither of us had a condom, and I'm on the pill.. but just went back on like this week... so I said if he pulls out its OK... which he did (but to be safe I did get the morning after pill today). So after we finish, hes about to lie beside me.. and notices that the covers are too solid.. THERE WAS SOMEONE SLEEPING THERE!! They were there the entire time.. and I hope to god that she was passed out cold cuz thats just embarassing. So to explain who she was/why she was there.. liz & her friends had gone out on a pub crawl and they were all to crash at nik & liz's place... but the girls lost liz and ended up coming back to the house earlier... and just grabbed any random bed, not knowing it was someones. So we were both freaked out.. I mean hell we had just had sex not only with soeone else in the room.. but on the same bed. OMG. Its just like.. what do you do! So we got semi-dressed & booked it upstairs and stole liz's bedroom... fooled around some more then went to sleep. Woke up in the morning/afternoon... had wake up sex lol... and we were just cuddling after and the door to the room opens.. its liz.. looking for clothes! So the first time I ever meet his sister Im laying naked in her bed with her brother. GREEEEAT. she seems really cool though. She was like "I just have to find some clothes, I dont have my glasses on, I cant see anything and wont look"... eventually had to turn the lights on to find her jeans but Nik had discreetly pulled the covers up over my back ... still so awkward!!
*side note, im having a bit of a panic attack, and i dont know why. had one thursday too. *
But weirdness aside, it was such a good night.. I do feel closer to Nik... I really like him. Like wow. I haven't really felt this way before.. And the nice part is that I can actually tell that he feels similarly, because he actually shows it. I got so lucky with him.
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[Wednesday
October 25th, 2006 at 8:48pm] |
Ok so. I'm an ENGG Week judge. What does that mean? I get to have the most fun out of anyone during engg week. which is the first week back at school in january. Though it does involve planning and organizing in advance. Which will also be fun. We had our first meeting tonite, and met all the judges (6 in total... one from each department - mech, chem, civil, geo, and electrical [aka zoo] and a head judge). they seem like a good group of guys. And yes I am the only girl. not often is there even a female engg week judge, but when there is, there is only one.Why? because it involves a looot of drinking, and a lot of the times the girls aren't up to it. I know my limits, I know i cant drink as much as the guys but damn i can hold my weight plenty. so the events of the actual engg week are:
road trip - the week before engg week (ie jan 3-7 for participants, dec 28-2 for judges) and we go somewhere.. of our choosing.. very possibly the states... within a 24 hour drive.. and find random things for the teams to take pics of/buy .. just things to prove you went on it, and who ever has the best (kind of like a scavenger hunt) wins. And for the judges.. and everyone else, but especially for the judges.. its a non stop drinking show (save for who ever is driving on a given day)... a lot of people look at it as preparing the judges for engg week.. getting the hangovers out of the way! because once engg week comes.. the judges are generally drunk all 5 days. and we just live on campus for that week.. and make the departments feed us and such. next friday we pick our 1st/2nd year judge.. and that includes getting the applicants plenty drunk,.. and making them do stuff for us (in general, the 1st/2nd year judge is the bitch.. has to do stuff for the other judges all week long haha) so we are having that at POETS on friday afternoon of next week. then the following friday is "judge bonding" - where the judges just go out and get SMASHED. involved in that is also the picking of nicknames.. during engg week no judge is kn own by name.. they all have a nickname that is picked for them. and its embroidered onto the jumpsuits. oh. and we have to wear jumpsuits all week long. just so we stand out :) even go downtown and go to one of the radio places (in the jumpsuits) and advertise some of the events. the other side of this is that we try to make as much money for charity as possible. a lot of the events are geared towards earning money for charity... like the bachelor & bachellorette auction.. all proceeds go to charity, and the charity ball.. all ticket proceeds go to charity.. our goal is $5000.. and our charity this year (as it has been for the pas tcouple years) is the womens emergency shelter.. which i think is a very good organization to give money to. especially because it is overlooked a lot of the times... like a lot of big corporate donation things go to cancer research, etc... but we want our money to go somewhere it will actually make a difference.. and lets face it.. $5000 to cancer isnt much money... so it really wouldnt be as effective.. but to a womens shelter.. thats a good chunk of change to have at their disposal. engg week is also to get all the department rivalry up again.. each department tries to win in the little competitions we have (like road trip, snow scuptures, movies, key clue)... to have the title of engg week winners. it is a big thing to us.. and another one of those things that makes engineering such a close faculty. if you ask anyone in any other faculty, they will say they know a few people who they have a few classes with.. whereas engineers.. i know hundreds of them in my year, older, and younger... we generally have much more comradery. and engg week is just another reason to show how well an entire faculty (of 4000 people) can get together and be seen as one.. even while competing against each other. no lie.. there isnt nearly that many people who come out for engg week.. most students do still go to classes and spend their evenings at home (tho there really is no homework because its only the first week of school).. but you get to see who is out there to have a good time as well. no lie.. a LOT of drinking goes down, not only with the judges (who you rarely see sober) but with anyone involved with the teams. its so much fun and i am so excited to get to be even more a par tof it this year. last year i was a part of the mech team... competing... and this year i represent mech & manu as a judge. the funny thing is, that there is about 100 mech students in each year, and maybe 30-40 manu students.. yet for the past 4 years.. the judge for our team has always been a manu student. i figured i HAD to keep that tradition going ;)
oh and whats weird.. one of the judges.. ive slept with. last year during engg week. he was a judge then too. alumni is also really involved.. and one that i know for sure is involved is this guy james.. who i slept with last year as well. and aleks, who is alumni and often involved in these thigns (and friends with james).. ive slept with too. made a fool of myself in front of him recently. not sure if he is going to be a part of the alumni this year or not. but oh dear if brandon, james and aleks in the same room.. jen is going to feel AWKWARD! guess thats a big lesson learned :S
but at the same time, i really dont have to worry about any of it because i have nik :) who i really really like.. and we've been taking things pretty slow.. which is nice.. we've been together 1.5 months.. and just in the past like 10 days has he found out about my nipple ring & my below the belt piercing.. which to say he was suprised.. is an understatement. we actually talked about my piercings after making out and he asked if they hurt & i said the one below the belt did.. but it was more like a flinch.. and he told me i didnt have to act so tough around him. i guess i do put up a "im tough, i can take anything" front.. but i sure didnt expect him to see through it. have i mentioned i really like him?? because i do. a lot.
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[Friday
October 6th, 2006 at 9:53pm] |
im a wino. but i dont care. screw the bottle of wine i had earlier. i have dilemmas and goodness. which to start with? good :)
so last night nik came out with me and we went to see my friends coursins band play .. there were about 10 or so of us there to watch.. and it was so nice just cuz we were either holding hands, or he had his arma round me.. it just felt so comfortable. i liked it. i like having him there. and then we left around midnight, he went south (i live in the north) so we had a good laugh over that, got home around midnight and chilled together a while.. talked & made out til about 1am. the best part is.. that he respects me. hes NOT trying to get into my pants.. things started to get heated a bit, and HE is the one who slowed down and kept things a bit more pg13 lol.. regardless... hes respectfull and im so not used to it and i like it. i realy do. even though im sometimes thinking i just want to bone him.. i like that im NOT. i like that hes actually interested in ME, not in getting laid. and honestly this is one of the first times ive felt like this. i guess what worries me is that im letting myself like him TOO much.. that im just letting myself fall hard for him.. and it scares the shit out of me.. but im taking things as they come, and having fun.
on the other hand i was talkign to travis and kevin tonight... both exes (travis an ex from 2 yrs ago who i hardly talk to, and kevin from this summer who i talk to all the time).. so.
kevin, asks me to go to his company xmas party... which he actually says is only supposed to be for employees and their wives/gfs.. but he might be able to swing somehting... and do i want to come? I told him sure.. and that it wouldnt be awkward cuz we're still friends.. but still weird cuz he know im daitn gsomeone else (which is why he mentioned it might be awkward.. but i can get around that)
then im talking to trav and i told him i was dating someone the first time we talked online after sat cuz he asked who i was with, and i say my best friend and boyfriend.. so today he says this"oh.. well i had been planning on proposing something to you until i found out that you had a new boyfriend">... like WTF is is jenns exes hit on her night!??!!
but... i couldnt care less about the exes.. its just dealing with them.. i like nik NOW. and want to be with nik,. noone else. but it makes me thing... kevin saw my recnt pic.. and hasnt stopped saing its hot, and trav just saw me recently.. perhaps i look better? weight wise i know i dont.. ive been the same weight all summer bouncing up and down 10 lbs... nothing wow ish.. bu maybe its the hair? i dont know? i think maybe its the hair? i honstly dont knwo! if you ask me i have an ugly face so i dont understand it! and i dont have a well proportion body.. im fucked up!. ???
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[Sunday
September 24th, 2006 at 8:24pm] |
And since you all are probably sick of me now.. I have a few pics of my new hair..
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[Sunday
September 24th, 2006 at 1:51am] |
Holy shit. what the hell is going on in my life.
Story 1:
Short synopsis: lost my cell phone
Lesson: dont keep cell phone in pocket
Out last night for my friends birthday at the Kilkenny, having a few drinks and all that jazz. I have my cell in my pocket instead of my purse so I can hear it ring - smart idea right? Well near the end of the night, i go to the washroom and as I stand up & flush the toilet.. out JUMPS my phone... into the flushing toilet. So I had to watch my cell phone go off to goldfish heaven. FUUUUUUUUCK. I was pretty choked about this, not gonna lie. So Nik had to pretty much comfort me the rest of the evening until we parted ways downtown. My problem was that I had no phone.. so couldnt call a cab when I got to my station, so I got to walk the 30 minutes home in the cold (about 0 degrees) wearing a skirt. NOT FUN. Froze my ass off (quite literally).
Story 2: This one takes place over yesterday and today.
Short synopsis: c-train people are fucked up and creepy.
Lesson: someone has headphones on... DONT HASSLE THEM
..1> Yesterday, taking the train from the chinook mall up to brentwood to head off to the Kilkenny, and sitting there, listening to my music and this girl sits down across from me, and asks if I used to work at fruits & passion. I say no, but notice that she has an iron ring on and ask if shes an engineer. Turns out she graduated from mech in '03. so we chatted about internship & school until her stop. interesting conversation.
..2> Coming home from the Kilkenny, after leaving Nik, me not being very sober, sitting on the train, listening to my music and this guy sitting in front of me turns around and starts talking. asks me something or other and the conversation that ensued had to do with him being from PEI, coming out here, starting off living in the homeless shelter and making things work for himself. then the girl across starts talking and somehow the conversation is about all 3 of us not being from here, and working and how there is so much work available here. odd conversation
..3> Today, sitting at the max bell ctrain station,again listening to my music, waiting to catch my train to meet my friend, some guy comes up and sits on the bench beside me, asking what train i was waiting for. So i point that direction and he asks if the other train had come already. it had just left so i told him that and so he asks how long itll take for the next one. i say 15 minutes. then im about to put my headphone back on and he says "has anyone ever told you you're beautiful".. so i mumble thanks and shove my earphone in. hes not done tho. keeps talking and says something about hoping i make it home to my family safely and such. im creeped the fuck out. finally im able to just keep my headphone in and ignore him until my train came, which was a huge relief. this guy was like 30 and looked dirty and had a few nasty scars on his face that looked like fighting scars. creepy conversation.
..4> Coming home from the movie tonight with 2 friends, cait and jan, and cait is telling us a story of some weird guy hitting on her on her way down to the theatre that night. I laugh and say its funny but weird and this black old guy with an african accent says "thats not funny".. im like .. uh whoa scary. so we all look confused and he repeats himself, followed by "he didnt smile", referring to jan. so then he goes off about how jan needed a friend, and this friend would be beer, and that it would give him courage being with 2 girls. at this point, jan missed something and is thoroughly confused, but caitlin and i cant contain our laughter. then he goes off about how he has to make his choice carefully, and that he cant pick the wrong girl. that he should wait and make sure its right or take his time and have one then the other. finally this guy gets off the train and we all just fall all over ourselves with laughter and the feeling of "that was weird!". weird conversation.
..5> On this same train, minutes later, i tell my stories of the previous 3 incidents on the c-train, and that the black guy had been number 4 of the weird people on the train. then another guy stands up and comments on how the african dude was having a flashback back to his days in africa and that us being social made him have this flashback and that he was reliving his days back there and thats why he was saying what he was saying. This guy also said that he knew many people like that. I whisper to jan "this makes 5" and laugh to myself. finally he stops rambling and gets off the train. nosy/fucked up conversation.
People should mind their own business on the ctrain when a)someone has headphones on, they clearly do no wish to be disturbed, nor hit on. and b)when a group of people are having their own conversation.. dont go and interupt with your own ramblings!
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